This morning around 5:30 I was shocked out of sleep by a blaring BUZZ! Actually, the word “buzz” does not do this noise justice. It was more like the sound you hear for a tsunami warning or the emergency test alert that comes on the television (TIMES ONE THOUSAND!)
Not knowing where the noise had come from soon became more disturbing than the fact that I was awake one and half hours earlier than I had planned. I got back into bed but could not go back to sleep.
As I laid in bed, watching the walls of my bedroom gradually lighten as the sun rised, I remembered a goal I had set and re-set and reset for the past several months, and this is how I wrote it:
Wake up at 5:30am, meditate 30 minutes, yoga 1 hour
Hmmmm….When I set the goal for myself, my mental plan was to gradually wake up 15 minutes earlier each day: 7:00am one day, 6:45 the next, 6:30 the next and so on until I reached my goal of 5:30am. Actually, it was more like wake up 5 minutes earlier each day: 7:00am one day, 6:55am one day… (Did I mention how much I love sleep?) But, I had not even started working on the goal. I had talked myself out of it every morning and every night; putting it off for another day, telling myself I just didn’t have the discipline yet to make such a drastic lifestyle change. (Again, did I mention how much I love sleep????)
How about NOT hitting bottom to learn and grow?
The universe has its way of helping us achieve our goals. It isn’t always a loud alarm that wakes us up and sets us on our desired path. Initially, it could be a soft whisper, a fortuitous meeting, or a sudden burst of creativity. Ignore the seemingly serendipitous and coincidental “help” and the universe doesn’t give up on us. Instead it gradually increases the volume of the message. Sometimes (more often than I care to admit) it takes a shocking and often painful event to occur before I actually accept the help. (“No”, my ego whispers, “You just don’t have the discipline yet.”) (It is still saying this.)
So that is the story of how I embarked upon my “forced” morning meditation. I know that the stillness of meditation, ironically, helps me hear the subtle whispers of the universe and my own inner knowing. And, hopefully, I will listen sooner. After all, it is my own goal I set for myself.
P.S. It WAS a smoke detector that was the culprit after all!
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